Deola's Diary

I don't think we wake up one day and decide to hide. I think it happens slowly. A comment here. A disappointment there. A rejection you never really recovered from. A room that made you feel like you were too much. Another that made you feel like you would never be enough. Without even realizing it, you begin to edit yourself. You stop speaking as freely because your opinions were once dismissed. You stop dreaming out loud because someone laughed the last time you did. You st

Have you ever wanted something so badly, prayed about it, prepared for it, and imagined how wonderful it would be, only to be met with a "no"? Maybe it was a relationship that didn't work out. A job you didn't get. A friendship that changed. An opportunity that slipped through your fingers. Or perhaps you simply weren't chosen. Rejection hurts. There is no point pretending that it does not. But while rejection is painful, it does not have to define you. Rejection is the exper

When waiting becomes so heavy that you start to question everything you have ever believed in, even your mere existence. Then you need to pause and give yourself a break so that you do not break. Waiting is a very difficult thing to explain to people who have never truly experienced it. Because from the outside, it can look like nothing is happening. But internally, waiting can feel like carrying an entire life inside your chest with nowhere to place it. That feeling of wakin

My love, How are you doing today? I may not know where you are right now, but I feel you closer than I’ve ever felt anyone. Your presence lingers quietly in my heart , like a promise that love still exists in its purest form. Sometimes I smile just thinking about you, and though we might have not met, your essence feels familiar… like a home I haven’t yet arrived at. I have waited a long time for this; to feel peace in love, to smile without fear, to believe that joy can be g